Date:	2008-10-14 02:15
Subject:	been a while...
Security:	Public
Mood:	sleepy
Music:	nuffin cuz it's bedtime

If New York was my boyfriend right about now is when we'd stop having sex.
Not to say New York did anything wrong, i'm just kinda... over it.

Not to say some recent realizations (one part romantic / one part just plain restless) need to be acted upon now (i'll be in NY at least 1 year from now), but...

I did decide last week that i'm moving to SF after NY.

p.s. vacation was amazing and i feel more alive & happy than i have in probably 6 months.

i think i may start up with tumblr.
any of you guys ever used?

this one looks fun. so yay.

1. Go to www.flickr.com
2. Type in your answer to the question in the "search" box
3. Use only the first page
4. Copy the html and paste for the answer.


1. What is your first name?


2. What is your favorite food?


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Date:	2008-03-23 22:56
Subject:	first easter away from home
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	kings of convenience

success!! i had my first "away from home holiday" and it was awesome. had a last minute zombie jesus potluck at my place and it was a blast. just the right amount of people, food, and space in my apt.made my very first batch of deviled eggs and they turned out purty dang awesome. tons of wine, sake, and blood orange mimosa glazed ham with sweet hawaiian rolls, with tons of sides and an awesome tiramisu cake. most of the party was matt and crew.. so happy that they live a few blocks away. went to the roof right at sunset and saw the pink, yellow, and blue skyline and about a hundred people walking across the brooklyn bridge. The wind finally stopped and it was so nice to be out on the balcony without a heavy jacket and feel warm. It was such a clear day here, totally perfect. You can feel that we're just on the edge of spring really kicking in. i can't wait to experience the ny spring "buzz" everyone tells me will get here as soon as we get to shed our heavy coats.

showed the guys my rooftop so we can get our bbq plannin for spring / summer parties. everyone's stoked and already figuring out where we're placing the buffet line..

i keep on meeting tons of people from hawaii through glenn here. i've been doing a bit of prodding with them, and it looks like if i want to move over there the island to be at is oahu. My plan is about 1-2 years here and head back west, past LA, and land in hawaii for at least 9 months. If that doesn't swing i may stick with the original plan and cross the atlantic to work at a UK label or technology company. Having the polar opposite of NY though does sound pretty nice, and to me that would be hawaii. Spam, surfing, island lifestyle. MmMmm..

hope everyone had a happy easter!!
x

hello to whoever is reading my livejournal from amsterdam and commenting about what i should and shouldn't be censoring.

this lj is now locked...
creepy mofo with anonymous comments...

So i'm not doing so well with the breakup. (Not sure if i can even drink socially without going over the edge.)
But i don't really feel like talking about it in this entry...

In other news...

Check out the view of the snow from my bedroom window!! It was so nice to walk to work with this much snow everywhere...

I've been living in DUMBO, Brooklyn for about 2 months now. In those two months i've gone back to LA twice (holiday and business) so ive actually been in dumbo closer to 6 weeks. I've always loved how close i am to the city (first stop out of manhattan off the F and A,C trains) and yet how quiet and different it is from manhattan and most other boroughs in bklyn, but haven't really walked around and EXPLORED my neighborhood until today.

Here's a pic of my building. I'm the building to the left of the tallest building in this pic.

Aerial view

Alley view

I walked around today with the roomie ,Henry Bruce and explored every store i've ever once peered into and wanted to visit and explored every alley which i thought was mostly industrial, but found is actually stacked with awesome shops! I found a fucking awesome Japanese store that had ridiculously awesome books, toys, and clothes. There were countless restaurants and art galleries hidden in every direction (including a pretty awesome looking restaurant on the water with an awesome view of the nyc skyline that was ON MY FUCKING STREET! how did i not see this? it was one block beyond where i normally go. And they have awesome BRUNCH!. There's a few cool art / book shops that had some pretty cool toys including the lomography starter kits i've been drooling over for months. I'm stoked that i don't have to pay for shipping and wait for my Diana starter kit now.

ive been hit pretty dang hard with this east coast flu. it's got a death grip on me and is slowly forcing me to enjoy doing nothing. i think the worst part of being sick is transitioning into sick. once yer there it can get pretty cozy.

i'm on day 4 of not really going out. i've gone to work for 1 1/2 days so far this week and i'm definitely going in tomorrow no matter what.

this is a shit time to get sick considering i just started this new gig last week and i was off to a pretty decent start.
thankfully i went in yesterday and i was still plenty sick for everyone to witness and was sent home early. they're understanding and i dont have much on my plate yet so it could be a "good" time to get sick.

it started snowing outside today which made me feel even better about camping in. this marks the 3rd time i've seen snow fall in the last 2 weeks.

every meal ive had this week has been from Front St. Pizza & Deli on the corner. every single one of their employees has a heart of gold and their food (especially) soups are amazing. their free delivery has been saving my ass and i think ive tired every soup they make already.

can't wait to go back to LA next week.... AND can't wait to fly on virgin america for the first time. ive been drooling over their opening for months.

i miss my boy... when it gets close to a month things get tricky. i get grumpy. throw in the sickness and i get a bit too girly (read: oversensitive wuss)

if i can get thru this week and land on my feet on monday i'll be happy.

(random sidenote: i decided my first pet will be a french bulldog named Coda. i hope to get him in 1 yr)

so it took some bit of getting used to. but two jackets and 3 pairs of gloves later, i'm really happy i moved here.
mostly due to the amazing friends i have out here and the new amazing friends i've met thru them. really good people. and most importantly, they feel the same way about cheese as me. went to my first raclette party last night.
amazing!!! so much fun. its a bit like a backwards fondue party, but a bit more personalized since you have your own lil dish. definitely into it.

my furniture just arrived today so i'm deflating the air mattress and getting settled. for the last week all we've had is a cable box (no tv) and a christmas tree. This is my first self bought christmas tree ever and it makes me pretty giddy.

i love my place & i love my roommates. pics coming soon.. im waiting for the grey weather to go away so i can take some pics of the amazing view from my rooftop.

off in the cold to the subway now. i miss you LA doods!

x

due to my first nego post today i think it'd do some good to post a 'what i'm thankful for' list. cuz there IS good shit out there.

1.my family being supportive of this move and the improvement of my relationship with just about all of my relatives. (specially close fam)

2.my amazing boyfriend who im thankful for everyday. and im thankful that during this transitional time we're doing the best EVER!

3.my friends in LA & NY who are making this change see a whoooolle lot less scary (altho its still pretty fucking scary)

4.my new roommates who are AMAZING. and totally kind enough to front my share of everythign to get into the apt until i get my relocation check from universal.

5.Guitar Hero 3 & my new Nintendo DS - cuz these things will definitely be a lifesaver when its too cold to go out n play

6. getting a gig that seems to be pretty supportive of whatever i want to do. it seems like its going to be a good spot to work. i just need to get over the anxiety of returning to a 9-5 existence after 5 months of downtown

7.running!! i am SO excited that i'll have an awesome treadmill in the building im moving into. i am really into the idea of runing every day before work (since going to 24 hour fitness at 2pm on a tuesday isn't going to swing anymore)

Happy Thanksgiving Dewdz!

today is my birthday. And yesterday i signed my lease to move to new york. Ian's not here again (in the UK again), but aside from that there's absolutely no consistency in my life with this birthday from the last. i like that.
if i was in the same spot i was a year ago i would probably be really bummed out.

i decided that the soundtrack to this transitional phase will be Bob Dylan. It just fits to be new in new york listening to Blood on the Tracks.

I wish i could be with my baby bro right now. he likes celebrating my birthday more than i do. probably because he gets to pick out a card at Target (he once told me when he was 3 that he wishes "the whole world was a Target") that plays music when it opens. the hardest part about leaving LA will be leaving my lil dude bro (and bay cities deli) and trips to Ian's moms in SD that mostly revolves around burritos.

i'm going into Universal today as well. I'm more excited to go in there and fill out my paperwork than anything.
I've been pretty lucky to have 5 months of freelancing but i'm sooooo ready to go back to work.

"Time is a jet plane it moves so fast
Oh but what a shame if all we've shared can't last
I can change I swear oh oh
See what you can do
I can make it through
You can make it too." - bob d.

"Trying to innovate with a major label is like trying to teach your Grandmother how to play Halo 3" - some guy named Rob.

Date:	2007-10-09 00:26
Subject:	ha
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired

"My coastal cultural analysis?

People with intelligence and ambition move to New York.

People with intelligence move to San Francisco.

People with just ambition move to LA."

-Jim Meskauskas, Chief Strategic Officer, Underscore Marketing

this morning was so crisp and cold i didn't mind being woken up by the chilly breezes coming thru my window at 8am.
i've been having more fun bein in my bed reading and internetting (and watching CASH CAB on Discovery channel) then bein out at events regardless of how much im diggin the music.

although, i've been lovin this new peace of mind, i feel pretty dang lonely. then i imagine how this loneliness would translate on the east coast.

if i can feel lonely in my hometown, what does loneliness feel like in a foreign city?

(sidenote: the chances of my moving to NY for the Universal gig in the next two months has increased to 70%)

could living in a new city lend an adventurous vibe to my life that would rid any dull moments that might lead to any loneliness? or would i be putting myself in a situation to feel stranded and isolated like a distraught tourist?

most importantly - can i deal with the weather?

i know this LA loneliness has nothing to do with cold mornings and not feelin the party scene. it makes me so deeply depressed to realize that i have absolutely nothing in common with a few friends who i felt very close to for a very long time. albeit a very long time ago. just makes me sad that if you don't pay attention things can drift so far a part. guess it's natural. but that doesn't stop it from bein a bummer.

Date:	2007-10-03 17:17
Subject:	i can't believe i'll be sitting in corpo meetings again...
Security:	Public
Mood:	weird

"Meetings are an addictive, highly-indulgent activity that corporations and other organizations habitually engage in only because they cannot actually masturbate"
- Dave Barry

i can't believe that this much stress in my life is all stemming from my inability to pick a NAME for my new company. Yes, i know that it doesn't matter what name you file under for your LLC. I'm talking about what matters. I'm talking about THE INTERNET. i need to find a name so i can register my domain and get legit.

I need to start marketing my artists now and i don't want to start off using my gmail account. I want to start making a name for myself as an entrepreneur. not a FLOOZY who keeps flip flopping on names.

crap.

such a teeny thing. but so HUGE.

the only thing i have right now is White Rabbit Works.

btw - this is for my online music marketing & artist development company i'm starting.
I'm even MOVING INTO MY OWN OFFICE SPACE on Oct 1st. Where i'll be paying rent to sit in a box with NO NAME on the door.

i vow to come up with a name, like it or not by the end of this weekend.

the end.

*bangs head on desk*